vulture child

she bought the toys to
fill a hole where someone
else was supposed to be.
but the beatles wrote a
whole song about that,
they got it right even though
they sound like something
kafka's turned himself into.
a metamorphosis would be
grand but how to summon one?

I woke up to spiders on my
ceiling once, and all my toys
were dead.
(dear leonardo,
I'm a vulture-child, too.)